Lately I have been doing some serious soul-searching about my chosen career, and wondering whether or not it's normal to feel like an idiot in your job 75% of the time. Is that normal? Is that healthy? All my life I have felt like teaching was my special calling. And now that I am doing it, it is horrifying to realize that sometimes I HATE IT. For a long time now, I have been envying the pallet stackers at Costco: their job is so simple, so unemotional. I need a career overhaul but don't want to go back to school. Some careers I have been considering include Costco pallet stacker, writer, designer, nurse, Jeopardy question asker (not writer, just asker), anchor woman for Eye Witness News, and clothing tester for Banana Republic.
Now, they usually tend to give nursing and designing jobs to those who actually went to school specifically for the position. And to ask Jeopardy questions, or be an acnhor woman, I think you have to actually be IN broadcasting. So my options are to stack pallets or work for Banana Republic. But they probably only allow thin models to test their clothes. And I think I'd probably wreck my mini-forklift at Costco. Since I am already fulfilling my dream of www publishing, I am at a loss. So I wrote a list of things I like about my job to cheer me up. Here it is:
Things about my job that really stoke my fire:
1. The outfits: suits, skirts, high heels, tweed florets.
2. The hours: and because my heart is never in it and I'm lazy, the hours are much fewer than you might imagine.
3. Picking out just the right video clip to show my students (can backfire when technology fails me, like it did last week to my shame).
4. Students who love me: this only happened once. Most of them usually just ask questions like "why are you not as fun as my roommate's English teacher?
5. Checking my box in the English Department work room.
6. Throwing my weight around at the Writing Center.
7. Blog fodder
8. Buying school supplies
9. Feeling like I never really left school, but not having homework anymore.
10. Reading (appropriate) excerpts from David Sedaris to my students.
That SOULD have made me feel better. But maybe some ice cream will instead? Think I'll check out Ben & Jerry's latest--I heard about it from Marcy.